My day/week was just made.

b4kudan:

(9:49:46 PM): your photography :3

(9:49:50 PM): i sho happys

akvitaa 9:50 pm

(9:50:07 PM): lawls which?

(9:50:09 PM): wait why? LOL

b4kudan

(9:50:21 PM): all

(9:50:25 PM): so much improvement!

akvitaa 9:50 pm

(9:50:30 PM): d'aww

(9:50:32 PM): thanks ~

b4kudan

(9:50:58 PM): you're learning so many art principles without taking art!

akvitaa 9:51 pm

(9:51:06 PM): i am? :x

b4kudan 9:51 pm

(9:51:14 PM): you absolutely are

akvitaa 9:51 pm

(9:51:21 PM): it's just. idk. i take whatever and whenver i want.

(9:51:25 PM): thank yous ~ x]

(9:51:31 PM): you dunno how happy your comments are making me. :3

b4kudan 9:51 pm

(9:51:44 PM): i'm very impressed

(9:51:53 PM): you're like my pops

(9:51:55 PM): learning by yourself

(9:52:04 PM): you still can improve

(9:52:08 PM): but from where you started :3

(9:52:15 PM): so much awesome!

(9:53:21 PM): i wonder what you can do with a dslr

(9:53:32 PM): let you mess with lighting and depth of field

akvitaa 9:53 pm

(9:53:47 PM): i've seen them up close and idk

(9:53:53 PM): it looks complicated Dx

(9:53:59 PM): so many buttons. and stuffs *-*

b4kudan 9:53 pm

(9:53:59 PM): mm not really

(9:54:06 PM): you actually don't use all that muchy

akvitaa 9:54 pm

(9:54:18 PM): orly o.o

(9:54:22 PM): i think it'd be fun to :3

My self-esteem has been pretty low this week. Well, for a while. And this just made up for most of it. Thank you, Horin Yip. I really needed that: someone to tell me positive things about me, someone to notice, someone to care.

I'm not saying no one cares about me. I'm just saying to needed a support...well, I honestly don't know how to phrase this. But that, right up there, was almost exactly what I needed.

This afternoon, I was feeling so down in the dumps that when I got home, I just turned my phone on silent and threw it somewhere in a forgotten corner. I didn't want to keep seeing/checking it. It makes me feel too dependent and I hate that. I don't hate being dependent, I just hate being TOO dependent. It makes me feel...unable to do anything for myself, etc. So yea, it was a healthy (too healthy) dose of annoyance, frustration, and a test of my patience.

Goddammit. Why not just come out with the truth and say I couldn't stand it? At all.

I'm really hating this. Also myself. My cousin says it's fine; she's been through something similar. My friend says it's fine: it's only human. I don't know what to say or do.

Just going with the flow for now.