Terribly annoying stressful day.

Slept at 2AM. Dad woke me up at 8:30 just to tell me to do laundry. Before that, Mom woke me up at 6-7AM to tell me the same thing. I get up and out of bed and head for the bathroom. I couldn't even shit in peace-no joke. Afterwards I went downstairs to do the stupid laundry. Soon after, I went back to bed with my netbook. Only 10 minutes after I came back upstairs, he told me he was headed out for his doctor appointment. REALLY NOW? Annoying.

As if both parents ticking me off so early wasn't enough, my sister had to be a total bitch. AS ALWAYS. I think part, if not most, of the reason why I was so mad today was because I didn't have permission to go out. My day today was so pointless and unproductive. I'm feeling extremely lazy and tired too. Not good.

When my dad came home around 2PM, I had to go finish up the laundry. Or try. He continued to tick me off to no end, so I took a nap. I think I took a 2 hour nap, or something. Before I knew it, it was 5PM and I had to bring my brother to karate (or whatever the heck it's called). I just became conscious from my nap (I wouldn't call it waking up, really) and I didn't want to bring him. I told him to tell my sister to bring him and I'll pick him up. She comes upstairs, punches me while I'm asleep, bitches/yells something stupid, and storms off. I was so mad, I punched the wall. It sort of hurt, but it was nothing compared to the anger I felt.

As if that wasn't enough. OH YEA, there's more. My mom comes home, and I remembered that I had to add the fabric softener to the second load. My sister was down there the entire time, and I thought she would have enough common sense to add the fabric softener. Of course, she did not. I go down, prepared to hang up the load and all she says to me is, "You forgot to add the softener." She has the nerve to say it in that manner, as if the laundry is solely my responsibility. REALLY NOW? I cam back upstairs and complained a little to my mom about how stupid my sister was. My dad "just" woke up form his nap and he bitched at me for complaining like a bitch. Gah. I was so mad, I went to my room, crawled in bed and just cried.

Later on, it was time for dinner. I had to set up the table by myself, and I was hungry. I didn't give a damn 'cause my stomach was growling for food. After dinner, my dad had this form for me to fill out. It was some insurance thing and they wanted to clarify something or whatnot. I filled it out in frustration due to my parents' attitudes and forgot to white something out while throwing a slight tantrum. Slight tantrum and I get scolded. Thanks a lot.

I think after today, my life span just shortened by a good 10ish years, if not 5 at the least. Thanks, family. Thanks a lot.

Holding in anger? I'm pretty sure it's a big no-no.

But I do it anyways. Why? I have no freaking idea. Maybe it's to prevent any shit from starting in the family. Any serious shit. Yeah, I'm willing to take the beating, to take it all just so nothing messes us up for real. Today, I've been wondering why I'm still doing it. It hurts, it actually hurts now.

Today, I've had it with them. They've never annoyed/pissed me off this much. I feel like punching something. A pillow won't do; I've tried. It doesn't give me a release from this. I've actually cried from it to let it out. It's helped a bit, but barely.

I'll probably punch a wall next. I don't care if I hurt myself. I'm not strong enough to break my own hand. If my sister does something unbelievably stupid to tick me off further, I will punch her. Right in the face.

Okay, that was part of today's rant. Time to go do laundry.

It's almost 2AM.

I feel tired, but not sleepy. I feel slightly down, but not depressed. I wonder what's up? It could be insomnia. It could be hormones. It could just be me.

I'm also feeling a bit mad. My parents refuse to give me permission to go out tomorrow. It's not fair. It's summer, I have no work yet, and senior year is approaching. Fast. Today, I realized just how short summer is. Summer vacation has barely begun, but I already have so many plans to do so many things with so many people. The downside? Parents and money.

My parents' constant excuse for not letting me go out? Black people. Hey, they're Asian; they must be racist. A couple of hours ago, I realized that they use this excuse all the damn time. What annoys me even more is that half the places I go to lack black people. They've never been there and they's only heard rumors from other Asian parents...so what the freak? Today, my friends told me that the area we were supposed to be headed for hb is full of Mexicans and Filipinos. Sounds pretty freaking harmless to me. And even so, every race has good people and bad people. It's like saying I'm forbidden to go anywhere 'cause it's full of bad people. Well, Mom and Dad, have you seen Brooklyn Tech? Have you been inside either of my high schools when school was in session? Do you know that most of my friends nearly got robbed/jumped regardless of whether or not I was with them? Okay. I think that is all. Whatever argument they throw at me is invalid at this point.

Ah, money makes the world go 'round. Too bad most of us lack money. Ever since I've been hanging out a lot, I've also been spending a lot. My wallet is hurting from its emptiness ): ! I need a way to save/make money. Too bad I only have a volunteer thing. -shrug- Wouldn't make a difference, I guess. I'd spend it too fast. Gah. I still want that camera. No, at this point, I need it. I think I should call my aunt and make a proposition with her about that Coach bag. II'll probably give the bag to her, tell her she can get herself a bag, and instead buy me a camera. For once, I know what I want. Knowing her, she'll probably do it for me. I mean, come on, my parents cannot disapprove of this. They just can't. I want the camera sometime before summer ends or before the start of senior year. I want to take down memories. All of them, if possible. I'm trying to do that with these posts for the time-being, but who knows how descriptive I can get before I'm sick of myself?

Okay, that was a bit too harsh. I should phrase it differently but exactly how well can I make it sound at 2AM o_o? Uh, not too much.

Oh yes, I'm still mad at my parents. Ignoring them won't do much good. I still want some sort of self-satisfaction-type thing. I'll sleep late. Yes, that's good. If my dad wakes me up early, screw it. He won't let me go out so what's the point in waking up early? Okay, then.

Good night/morning!

Hottest day of June!

Weather forecast for today: high of 92 but it feels like 100. BOY, DID IT REALLY. It was a stupid day to wear a new top and go hb. I sound like such a girly girl, but no. The new top is hard to move in unless I'm used to it; it was my first time wearing it today. I think today, I lost at least a gallon of water in sweat. It was so nasty and humid. Worst of all, we were playing in the blazing sun. Pros: I get to work on my tan/hb skills (if I have any). Cons: "Working on my tan" = getting burnt -> having parents question where the heck I've been all day.

So, what were we doing on the courts so early in the morning? Simple: it was the last day of school. Prefect was only from 9AM-10AM but most prefects were let out by 9:30AM, if not before. I was let out around that time but I had to make a trip to my counselor's office; I had a little card that said I was to attend summer school next week. I failed Physics Lab but passed the Regents Exam. Thank goodness that was a good enough reason for her to remove me from the class. It still took a while and there was not ventilation...not to mention it was extremely crowded. As you've guessed: not a fun experience.

Afterwards was a bit of a blur and drag at the same time. We hbed in the morning/early afternoon. It was extremely hot, humid, and sunny. We played until Sam came from Midwood and left soon after to Seaport. There, we walked around. Johanna and I had a fun time playing hide-and-seek but we thought Louise was mad so we stopped. Turns out there was a slight misunderstanding on our part. My bad. But things are cleared up now, so it's all good (:

After Seaport, we went to Borders. It's a bookstore across the street from Trinity Church. We were kicked out for playing cards and chilling in the AC. Yea, first time I was kicked out of a bookstore. -shrug- Didn't matter. Not like I was ever going to go there again :P We walked to Chinatown from there. I took the same route as last summer: from NYDH to CT. It was just a bit father. We continued walking to the TenRen on past Canal St. The AC felt good, the drink was satisfying, and the company was just lovely. All in all, it was a comfy afternoon. I really enjoyed myself and I'd love more days/afternoons like this over the course of summer.

I should end this post right here. Yea, I was supposed to do this yesterday but I sort of fell asleep (as always).

Ouran High School Host Club? AGAIN? Maybe.

Yes, believe it or not, I'm watching anime. I shake my head to myself. I know you're doing it too ): ! But it's a hot, lazy Sunday afternoon...and I don't want to clean my room. Yea, about that. I've been saying that for the past two weeks. Just about two weeks o.o

Tomorrow's the "official" last day of school. Wow, I'm already a senior-to-be, as Emily states. It's scary. I don't know if I should look forward to next year or not. I mean, yea, I'm looking forward to spending time with friends but...depending on where everyone's going to college, it makes me sad. I guess I shouldn't dwell on the sad parts and just be happy, but sometimes one cannot help but to think about these things.

Okay, back to anime. Just felt like updating a bit while waiting for my video to load :P

I'll be baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.

Last Day of Classes on Saturday - Morning

Ick. Saturday morning. I should be getting ready for Chinese school but instead I think I'll laze around a bit. It's the last day...we took our finals last week (which I totally cheated on) and I'm tired. I really don't want to go. Meh. Waste of my Saturday.

I feel a bit tired but I also feel well-rested. Does that make any sense? But when I was washing up, I realized something that I would not have seen if I was wearing glasses: panda eyes. I have big dark circles under my eyes and it looks...ick. Um, I should sleep more =/ From now on, I should try to not bring my netbook in bed with me. Otherwise I'd stay up til...who knows when.

Oh, to answer Emily: No, I haven't always played handball. I took it up freshman year but stopped near the end/beginning of sophomore year. I didn't take it up again until recently-I think it was about a month-ish ago? If not a couple weeks. Give or take a week.

I know your opinion of handball is...not a good one. But I sort of like it. As long as I don't get messed up hands I'm fine ;D ! I feel like I improved and it's a way where I can feel active. At home, I have a hoop but no motivation. Yea, I shouldn't use exercise as an excuse for handball. I just lack motivation.

Which reminds me, I should start working out this summer. No joke. I'm setting a goal for myself every week-ish. Maybe a certain number of crunches/push-ups/planks, etc. If I set up a goal for a number of pounds then that's...not that motivating, in my opinion.

Okay, time to stop lazing around and get ready for school. ):

Last Day of Classes!

Yes, as stated in the title, today is the last day of classes! FINALLY! Now summer, come to mee ~ I got a volunteer thing at my school. Lame, but good enough. I'll have something "productive" to do and my parents won't be on my back about it. -Sike-

My mom just found the wet clothes from the beach and she's wondering where they came from. I told her we went to the beach after the picnic. She just scolded me for not telling her ahead of time. The scolding was pretty pointless because I came home 3 hours earlier. Isn't that enough? Really? That just ruined my mood for the night. Now she wants me to give her the number of the teacher or staff that I'm helping out at my school. The thing is...I don't want her to find out the hours and my off days. I'd be pretty mad if she did and I wasn't able to fulfill my summer dreams. Someone's going to get hurt, and it won't be me.

So, moving on. Many classmates of mine cut today. I mean, it's the last day and no teacher in their right mind is going to teach anything, really. Well, no one but my math teacher. That was one of the few classes that I did not cut. I cut every class after Calculus though. I didn't plan on it...I just winged it. I thought that I was going to cut after 7 but that was it. Turns out I was cutting P.E. too. -shrug- Nothing much happened in those 3-ish periods. We just sat around, talking, chilling and waiting.

After 8th period, when Max came out from his math class, we headed for 51 for handball. Louise and Max couldn't stay long so we walked there...in the blazing hot sun. I guess it was okay; I got a chance to tan my deathly pale legs. We stopped by McDonald's before we went to handball. Oh, I finally gave Max his panda back there. We got to 51 after we ate and found Sam sitting in a corner of the court. We (Louise, Johanna, a bit of Howard, and I) watched a couple of games and then Louise had to go. Howard was in a...not-so-great mood by the looks of it so I let him play. Uh, Johanna and I were then in an awkward kind of gloom. Meh. Ron and Victoria and a friend came soon after Louise left and they jogged around the block. Ron stayed to play.

Sometime later, Johanna and I played. I love to play and feel an adrenaline rush but I hate it when I screw up my right arm. Right arm, not hand. I used to screw up my hand but now it's my whole arm. I don't mess up my hand anymore thanks to Pandaddy's gloves. Yea, doing it for his embarrassment. It's called payback. And it's also because I can (:< ! Okay, so around 6PM-ish, Louise came back and she sat with Howard while the rest of us continued to play. Oh, Ron and Victoria left by now. Along with their little friend.

All in all, it was a somewhat productive afternoon. I got to "work out" with Johanna a bit and we just chilled together. I was fine with that. If I asked Louise and Howard, they'd say something...stupidly fishy. Let's leave it at that D:< !

Okay, I'm getting a bit tired and my room is getting a tad bit cold. Maybe I should blow-dry my hair and get some sleep. I have a feeling I'm going to be really sore tomorrow. That's good.

Um, I may or may not post after this. Maybe just a short "just thoughts" thing. Possible. Depends on how tired I am. Or how bad my "insomnia" is.

Hopefully, it's not too bad. It won't be if I don't dwell too much on...stuff.

Shopping in SoHo

Today was a JAL day: Johanna, Angela, and Louise. Well, a JAL afternoon. We were going shopping in SoHo. Well, I was. I needed some new tops and what better place than SoHo for the time being? We were supposed to meet at 11AM but due to family and train problems, I didn't arrive until 12. They were there early though. :x But they weren't mad...'cause I bought Jamba Juice for them. But that was later.

The first store we stopped by was Uniqlo. It's the Japanese clothing line thing in SoHo - the only one in the USA. I bought a pink-ish V-neck Tee, a blue-ish tank top and a gray tunic-like thing. I'll post pictures of the gray one when I wear it Monday (: !

Not much happened today. It was a fairly relaxing day with JAL. I think today was like everyone's break day, or something. Although I could've done well without the constant taunting from Louise, it was fun. :P

Now, it's 1:16AM. I'm hungry and a bit sleepy. Maybe I should sleep, but I had a 2-3 hour nap earlier...nah, I'll go sleep D:<

Good night. (: !

Memorial Day repeat at Coney Island

This year's Memorial Day was really worthwhile. Although I missed my curfew and I made my parents furious, I didn't care. I had a fun time with some friends at Coney Island Beach. We all needed that day to let loose and relax. It was the end of APs and everyone was stressed with school, life, and love. Now that it's the end of the school year, we wanted another day like that. Parents are becoming more stressed about summer plans, since we're juniors and all, so we needed another day like Memorial Day. And that's how we got to today.

We planned a day to go to Coney Island and today was perfect: no rain and tons of sun. Only thing was: what are we going to do there? We is referring to the follow: Louise, Howard, Johanna, Max, Sam, Ron, Victoria, Will and I. I think almost everyone has an animal but Victoria and Will. Oh, me too. But the thing is, everyone's more hung up on me getting an animal. I guess it's cos we're closer? We chill a lot more? I don't know why but I know it's a good feeling. Oh goodness, I'm sounding/feeling all cheesy again. I can't even imagine the end of senior year. ):

Louise, Howard, Johanna and I arrived at Coney Island station at exactly 11AM. We would've been there a bit earlier if the train didn't delay right before the last stop. I made about 20 sandwiches and Louise helped me carry some. I even brought along a cooler! It was a small old-ish one, but it was enough. We met up with Ron and Victoria at the station so all that was left was Max, Sam, and Will. Sam was the first one of the three to arrive and later on, while waiting for Max, we decided to buy an umbrella. Sorry, a parasol. Eh, same difference. We were nine people and the umbrella was $10. I paid for Johanna and Max (he wasn't there yet and Johanna only had a 5) while Will paid for the extra dollar. We have a new red umbrella for keeps. And guess who got to bring it home? Who out of the whole group lived the closest to Coney Island? That's right. Yours truly.

We were stuck at the station, clueless as to what to do. We decide to head for the beach first because that was the reason why we were here: to get some sun and sand. We laid out the towels and failed at one of our many attempts to get the umbrella to stay up. We also attempted beach volleyball. Another fail. No one was able to draw straight lines and the court was later split in half (thanks, Max) so it was a four-way fail beach volleyball. But it was fun (:

Soon after, I went into the water with Louise. Damn, did she have a good laugh. So, stupid of me, I didn't bring a change of underwear. I thought I was only going to wet my feet and get sand everywhere so I only brought a change of clothes, but no underwear. I told myself: don't get my shorts wet. They got wet. Then I said: nothing above the waist. I drenched myself from shoulder down. Later on: hair should stay dry. My bun got wet. Finally: new glasses, please stay dry. Louise splashed me and they got wet. D: And what was she doing this whole time? LAUGHING HER ASS OFF. She's a mean Piggy.

After the water fail, we ate and continued beach volleyball. I was dripping because of my shorts so I just sat and ate some crunchy sandwiches. Om nom nom nom. Yummy. At some point, Louise and I got up to go change. The bathroom was a long walk away D: We cleaned up when we got back and headed for Luna Park/the places around it. The guy with the sexy voice (according to Max) wasn't at the water-gun game from Memorial Day, but the same guy was at the basketball game. So, let's see who won what that day. William and Co. won 16 fishes in total. He exchanged it for one hermit crab and four goldfish (which we gave away later on). Howard, Ron, and Max each won a tiny puppy doll from the basketball game mentioned earlier except Howard won more so he exchanged it for a white bear (which Louise is very happy about :3). Max also won a white monkey from a dart game. He said the monkey was ugly and the dog wasn't a panda so he gave them both to me. Now they're sitting on my bed...in a pile with the Pikachu that I won last time. He spent over $15 to win the dog, which is kind of funny. 3 basketballs for $5. He failed so bad. "You better take good care of them! Don't throw them in a pile!" Uh, too late for that ~

Oh we also went on the Wonder Wheel. 6 out of 9 people went. Which was stupid 'cause Johanna said she wanted to go earlier but she didn't ):< ! So it was just Howard, Louise, Max, Ron, Victoria, and I. The seating was going to be awkward: one car held only four people. So we decided on this: Howard, Louise and I on one and Ron, Victoria, and Max on another. Right before we got on, Howard said, "Look, we both have a third wheel." Thanks, Pandaddy. Thanks. D:< We went for a swinging car and it was fun. Every time the car swung, there was a nice breeze and we were so high up. The view was nice. You can see all the way to the beach and the station and everything. I even saw the Verrazano Bridge! It was exhilarating.

After all that stuff at Coney Island Beach, it was only 3:30PM. Everyone had time to kill but we ran out of ideas. So what do we do? We all crash at my place. Why? Cause I'm closer x_x! Not everyone came over though; Sam and Will left for home and everyone else came over. and we played MJ. My mom didn't mind too much; she wasn't home yet. My sister was a bit bitchy as usual. Meh. But we had fun. Max was feeling up the tiles; he was trying to guess what tile it was before he looked and got most of the characters wrong. Ron didn't have as many fails as last time, so it was okay. Louise and Howard left early 'cause she had to be home by 6. Or before.

It was getting late when Ron and Max said they had to leave. "I'll give myself a 10 minute leeway," Max said. So he was going to leave at 6:10. Before we knew it, it was 6:20. He kept going: 6:15, nah 6:20, etc. Johanna said that it was going to be extremely late before anyone was leaving. So Max suggested they stayed for dinner. We laughed. Later on Johanna was saying how it was going to be 9PM by the time they wanted to leave. Max suggested a sleepover. Another round of laughs. All in all, it was a fun day.

They left around 6:30PM. My fridge was somewhat raided. I'm missing two Cokes and some milk. Don't ask about the milk, ahaha.

There goes the post that I was supposed to put up yesterday but I fell asleep. I may or may not do one today. I might be really short :x Depends on how wide-awake I feel D:< !

I guess that's it for now (:

First post!

Okay, I need something here so I can fix the template here. Yea, it's late and I'm a bit determined to finish fixing all the settings to my liking and posting about my day...yesterday. Dang, it's almost 1AM. I better hurry if I plan on getting some sleep tonight. Or not.

More later ~