It's almost 2AM.

I feel tired, but not sleepy. I feel slightly down, but not depressed. I wonder what's up? It could be insomnia. It could be hormones. It could just be me.

I'm also feeling a bit mad. My parents refuse to give me permission to go out tomorrow. It's not fair. It's summer, I have no work yet, and senior year is approaching. Fast. Today, I realized just how short summer is. Summer vacation has barely begun, but I already have so many plans to do so many things with so many people. The downside? Parents and money.

My parents' constant excuse for not letting me go out? Black people. Hey, they're Asian; they must be racist. A couple of hours ago, I realized that they use this excuse all the damn time. What annoys me even more is that half the places I go to lack black people. They've never been there and they's only heard rumors from other Asian parents...so what the freak? Today, my friends told me that the area we were supposed to be headed for hb is full of Mexicans and Filipinos. Sounds pretty freaking harmless to me. And even so, every race has good people and bad people. It's like saying I'm forbidden to go anywhere 'cause it's full of bad people. Well, Mom and Dad, have you seen Brooklyn Tech? Have you been inside either of my high schools when school was in session? Do you know that most of my friends nearly got robbed/jumped regardless of whether or not I was with them? Okay. I think that is all. Whatever argument they throw at me is invalid at this point.

Ah, money makes the world go 'round. Too bad most of us lack money. Ever since I've been hanging out a lot, I've also been spending a lot. My wallet is hurting from its emptiness ): ! I need a way to save/make money. Too bad I only have a volunteer thing. -shrug- Wouldn't make a difference, I guess. I'd spend it too fast. Gah. I still want that camera. No, at this point, I need it. I think I should call my aunt and make a proposition with her about that Coach bag. II'll probably give the bag to her, tell her she can get herself a bag, and instead buy me a camera. For once, I know what I want. Knowing her, she'll probably do it for me. I mean, come on, my parents cannot disapprove of this. They just can't. I want the camera sometime before summer ends or before the start of senior year. I want to take down memories. All of them, if possible. I'm trying to do that with these posts for the time-being, but who knows how descriptive I can get before I'm sick of myself?

Okay, that was a bit too harsh. I should phrase it differently but exactly how well can I make it sound at 2AM o_o? Uh, not too much.

Oh yes, I'm still mad at my parents. Ignoring them won't do much good. I still want some sort of self-satisfaction-type thing. I'll sleep late. Yes, that's good. If my dad wakes me up early, screw it. He won't let me go out so what's the point in waking up early? Okay, then.

Good night/morning!