Holding in anger? I'm pretty sure it's a big no-no.

But I do it anyways. Why? I have no freaking idea. Maybe it's to prevent any shit from starting in the family. Any serious shit. Yeah, I'm willing to take the beating, to take it all just so nothing messes us up for real. Today, I've been wondering why I'm still doing it. It hurts, it actually hurts now.

Today, I've had it with them. They've never annoyed/pissed me off this much. I feel like punching something. A pillow won't do; I've tried. It doesn't give me a release from this. I've actually cried from it to let it out. It's helped a bit, but barely.

I'll probably punch a wall next. I don't care if I hurt myself. I'm not strong enough to break my own hand. If my sister does something unbelievably stupid to tick me off further, I will punch her. Right in the face.

Okay, that was part of today's rant. Time to go do laundry.